i need $.
the spree addiciton is acting up on me again.
anw. sch just started.
tons of assignments to do.
i think i will hate IBS the most.
those assignments that the chers says are the most FUN
are actually the most IRRITATING ones.
i would rather have normal tuts.
Thurs will be the most motivated day to go to sch.
coz i get to meet THEM!
haha. love you all lots k!
and Sabrina Lee! I know you miss me alot! :D
(i think i will write some posts in my lj account again and lock it up.
too many constraints here.)
what we could have been, 11:38 PM.
you won't know what i'm gg through.
today's bad. very bad. really bad.
well. i am used to being alone in the house.
but sometimes i still wish to have someone at home whom i can at least chat with.
it's not that i will tell them my problems coz i will always keep them inside me.
but at least be there?
but no. they weren't there. tt's ok. coz i won't expect them to know that i have had a bad day and even almost cried on the bus today just because of small little teeny weeny things.
i shan't elaborate on tt.
but! they shldn't have made me even more upset rite!
why are they maligning me for things that i didn do
and when i wanted to stand up for myself, they think tt i am being rude and don't respect them.
worst . my mum goes on about. how can u talk to me liddat?
how will u treat me in the future if u are like this now?
then the stupid bro. sometimes i like him ALOT. then at times i really hate him to the core.
u quarrel with me for the slightest things.
i have been putting up with u for a very long time for the: who should use the desktop thingy.
i always let u use the desktop at most after 15 mins after u asked me to.
but when i asked u?
oh! maybe i will wait until the next day then i will et the chance to use it.
at least until u get home. then i will have to give up the seat to you!
i told u abt this today. but still u feel tt u are right. coz u insisted tt u need to send some impt emails. ok. send emails will send 1 hr one meh?
and. what's more. u got angry with me and i really mean' angry'
when i just type 'ok' for you in ur chat window for fun.
like u didn type much more longer words for me lar!
and those tt shldn't be typed!
just becoz tt girl on the chat window is the girl u like!
shit you!
so becoz of all these. i cried for at least 4 times today.
not even listening to happy songs helps.
break my own record k.
i may look ok and still very happy on the outside but i'm nt.
serious. i am so getting used to this pretence i placed around myself.
sometimes i wonder if i will meet a person that i can share all my sadness and happiness with.
a soul mate.
what we could have been, 9:44 PM.
shld i take up guitar or hiphop or mv dance?
both coz ard 80 bucks per mth.
i wanna take on both but too expensive.
was considering vocals too but it's freaking ex.
$180 for FOUR lessons!
ok. back to the topic.
pop guitar. 3 levels. based on own progression.
level 1 $80. level 2 $90. level 3 $100 per mth.
basic hip hop. have to take 48 lessons (1yr) in order to progress to hip hop which consists of 12 lessons. $73.3 per mth
mv dance. 12 lessons for basic. another 12 for advance. $72.5 per mth.
i have same level of interest for all!
how how how?
what we could have been, 10:45 PM.